The most amazing thing happened to me as I watched a wonderful woman die.....
OK, so who would volunteer to care for someone while they died? Right?
Yes, I'm one of the two that can take off whenever I want. Yes, I can be there in a heartbeat and be happy to do it. blah....blah....blah....
Let me inform you....I've had two children and I would have sworn that they were the most miraculous things that ever happened to me....Until I saw God take someone to heaven.
It was amazing. beautiful. peaceful.
All of us were surrounding her bed. Finally we had brought her home to die on her terms. She wouldn't have had it any other way.
Oh, Nanny.....GORGEOUS (that was my nic-name for her) watch over me, my husband and my children. Keep us safe, keep us remembering your spirit, keep us in God's light, help us remember that there is another world we can be a part of if we just believe.
And I believe.............
Saturday, May 24, 2008
Saturday, May 17, 2008
Calling all good vibes....
Nanny (my hubby's grandmother, and an amazing woman who I consider to be my grandmother) had a stroke. She's 90 and is struggling. When most people put out a good vibes request, it's usually the "get well" kind. This is a little different.
Nanny wants to pass on. We've had countless conversations about how she thinks God has forgotten her. She wants to be with her husband and daughter who died of cancer when she was 6. These conversations have always made me feel a little queasy, but now I understand.
Selfishly, of course I want her to be here forever. I know that's not possible. Death is a part of life. Now, she's in pain and is struggling, so I want her to be where she will be happy and peaceful. I want God to take her. I can not believe I just wrote that for everyone to see because it's so hard to admit, but it's true. The last thing I want is for her to lose her dignity or to suffer for even a moment, but that's what she's doing now and I hate it.
So, please my blogger friends.....pray/meditate or whatever you do that Nanny will be with her husband and daughter again soon, and that we, as her family, will be strong enough to let her go.
Nanny wants to pass on. We've had countless conversations about how she thinks God has forgotten her. She wants to be with her husband and daughter who died of cancer when she was 6. These conversations have always made me feel a little queasy, but now I understand.
Selfishly, of course I want her to be here forever. I know that's not possible. Death is a part of life. Now, she's in pain and is struggling, so I want her to be where she will be happy and peaceful. I want God to take her. I can not believe I just wrote that for everyone to see because it's so hard to admit, but it's true. The last thing I want is for her to lose her dignity or to suffer for even a moment, but that's what she's doing now and I hate it.
So, please my blogger friends.....pray/meditate or whatever you do that Nanny will be with her husband and daughter again soon, and that we, as her family, will be strong enough to let her go.
Wednesday, May 14, 2008
6 years goes by in the blink of an eye!
Gimme some love!My boy turns 6 today! I just can't believe that the little baby I held in my arms not too long ago is 6 today! Time goes by waaaaay too fast!
He's an amazing boy! Smart, charming, athletic, adorable, full of love and charm (he gets all these traits from his mother)!! I am so blessed to have him as my son and am still amazed every day when I look at him and think to myself, "I made that." Children are a miracle!
Two of his favorite things: riding his "motorcycle" and playing soccer!
Camping this spring. Lovin' on his mama!
Happy Birthday, Buddy! I love you with all my heart......
Sunday, May 11, 2008
Moms
Today is mother's day....my family always goes out of their way to make me feel special. My kids made me the cutest cards (my boy even cried as he was making it, overwhelmed by his emotions), served me chocolate covered strawberries, croissants, coffee and a mimosa in bed!
Then, we went out for an amazing brunch (more mimosas, of course) with my mom!
I love being a mom and watching my kids grow and flourish. They make my life so much more fulfilling and give every day a purpose. But there is one person who I owe so much thanks and gratitude to for teaching me what being a good mother is all about: MOM, I LOVE YOU!
Several years ago, I used to hear familiar words come out of my mouth and I would think to myself (eyes rolling), "God, I sound just like my mother." Now, I've learned to appreciate your wisdom and know that sounding like you isn't a bad thing, but a reflection of how your values are a part of me. I'm honored to pass those along to my children and know they will do the same when it's their turn to have a family.
Your influence is far reaching! We all love you, admire you and respect you more than you will ever realize. On Mothers Day, and every day....you are a blessing!
Then, we went out for an amazing brunch (more mimosas, of course) with my mom!
I love being a mom and watching my kids grow and flourish. They make my life so much more fulfilling and give every day a purpose. But there is one person who I owe so much thanks and gratitude to for teaching me what being a good mother is all about: MOM, I LOVE YOU!
Several years ago, I used to hear familiar words come out of my mouth and I would think to myself (eyes rolling), "God, I sound just like my mother." Now, I've learned to appreciate your wisdom and know that sounding like you isn't a bad thing, but a reflection of how your values are a part of me. I'm honored to pass those along to my children and know they will do the same when it's their turn to have a family.
Your influence is far reaching! We all love you, admire you and respect you more than you will ever realize. On Mothers Day, and every day....you are a blessing!
Friday, May 9, 2008
Thursday, May 8, 2008
Poor thing's just like her mama!
Here is a snippet of the after dinner conversation between me and my almost-10-year-old daughter while we were washing dishes and listening to some tunes....
Girl: "Mom, I love this song!" (Cry me a River by Justin Timberlake)
Me: "Do you know what it's about?"
Girl: "No"
Me: "It's about Britney Spears. She cheated on Justin and he wrote this song about how sad he was after she did that to him."
Girl: "Britney dated Justin Timberlake? No way!"
Me: "Yep. Not too long ago they were the hot couple everyone wanted to see on TV and in magazines."
Girl: "Mom, now I know that girl is crazy! Who breaks up with Justin Timberlake? He's so hot!"
God, help me.....I'm in so much trouble when this girl hits puberty!
Girl: "Mom, I love this song!" (Cry me a River by Justin Timberlake)
Me: "Do you know what it's about?"
Girl: "No"
Me: "It's about Britney Spears. She cheated on Justin and he wrote this song about how sad he was after she did that to him."
Girl: "Britney dated Justin Timberlake? No way!"
Me: "Yep. Not too long ago they were the hot couple everyone wanted to see on TV and in magazines."
Girl: "Mom, now I know that girl is crazy! Who breaks up with Justin Timberlake? He's so hot!"
God, help me.....I'm in so much trouble when this girl hits puberty!
Wednesday, May 7, 2008
Best news, ever!
We had a monumental day at our company today. I say "we" but really it's the Big Boss Man that put together an amazing deal that's going to keep our little company alive and kickin' for many, many years to come. And today it was approved!!!! You have no idea how much pressure this alleviates from my shoulders....from our shoulders!!
A lot of my dear friends read this blog, so I just wanted to give a big THANK YOU to everyone that has listened to me bitch and moan about the state of our company over the last few months. You guys give me sanity, love and support when I need it the most!
A lot of my dear friends read this blog, so I just wanted to give a big THANK YOU to everyone that has listened to me bitch and moan about the state of our company over the last few months. You guys give me sanity, love and support when I need it the most!
Tuesday, May 6, 2008
Grrrrrrrrrrrrrr
Would someone please explain to me why it's easier for some folks to take family members for granted than people we've known for a short time? Don't give me that, "they're your family and know you'll love them no matter what" crap, either! I don't buy that for a second.
Seriously......why is it easier to be an asshole to someone you "love" than someone you you barely know? Do we try to look better to new people because we've accepted that the family member knows our flaws?
And, really if we have flaws shouldn't we try to work on them instead of embracing them? Doesn't Oprah or Maya Angelou or some freakin' 21st century guru always say, "when you know better, you do better?" Yeah, I call bull shit on that statement!
I need to go out and buy a punching bag today!
Update: I realized while getting ready for a business dinner that I've managed to lose a clothing size, so a punching bag will no longer be necessary (for today, anyway)!
2nd Update: NEVER bring your kids to a business dinner, even if the dinner is with your ex-brother-in-law and he insists!!
Seriously......why is it easier to be an asshole to someone you "love" than someone you you barely know? Do we try to look better to new people because we've accepted that the family member knows our flaws?
And, really if we have flaws shouldn't we try to work on them instead of embracing them? Doesn't Oprah or Maya Angelou or some freakin' 21st century guru always say, "when you know better, you do better?" Yeah, I call bull shit on that statement!
I need to go out and buy a punching bag today!
Update: I realized while getting ready for a business dinner that I've managed to lose a clothing size, so a punching bag will no longer be necessary (for today, anyway)!
2nd Update: NEVER bring your kids to a business dinner, even if the dinner is with your ex-brother-in-law and he insists!!
Monday, May 5, 2008
It ain't easy being me
Well, you'll all be happy to know that I DID IT!! I said EXACTLY what I planned to say, which usually doesn't happen because I get intimidated by my "opponent." I had my notes with me so I wouldn't forget any of my important points and I was sure to look this person in the eye the entire time, all while keeping a professional, non-emotional (read: non-bitchy) tone. I didn't yell or get out of control. I didn't smack this person, which is what I really wanted to do.....Instead, I was an enormous tower of strength, honesty and professionalism.
What did it get me?
When your opponent is a trained, professional arguer (is that a word....'cause it is now) it can be rough to keep them on track. When this person tried to steer the topic into a different direction, I was quick on the draw to move back to my point. Alas, I still never got a clear answer to the questions I posed, nor did I get an admission of guilt. Just a bunch of excuses (which I completely expected) and blame on everyone else for processing the information incorrectly.
But this person now knows I know the truth. I have a great deal of influence over the other person in charge and now this person knows I am on the other side of the fence where they're concerned. That's all I can ask for right now.
Speaking of the "other person in charge," they totally threw me under the bus during all of this, but I still managed to hold my own. Even though I didn't get exactly what I want, I still feel pretty good about sticking to my guns, even in the face of adversity.
Go, me!
What did it get me?
When your opponent is a trained, professional arguer (is that a word....'cause it is now) it can be rough to keep them on track. When this person tried to steer the topic into a different direction, I was quick on the draw to move back to my point. Alas, I still never got a clear answer to the questions I posed, nor did I get an admission of guilt. Just a bunch of excuses (which I completely expected) and blame on everyone else for processing the information incorrectly.
But this person now knows I know the truth. I have a great deal of influence over the other person in charge and now this person knows I am on the other side of the fence where they're concerned. That's all I can ask for right now.
Speaking of the "other person in charge," they totally threw me under the bus during all of this, but I still managed to hold my own. Even though I didn't get exactly what I want, I still feel pretty good about sticking to my guns, even in the face of adversity.
Go, me!
Sunday, May 4, 2008
Monday, Monday....
Tomorrow is a really big day for me at work. I finally have the chance to confront someone who has completely betrayed my trust.....and I get to do it with all our employees present. In other words, this person can't wiggle out of the truth by telling different people different stories. I've been waiting for this moment all week!
I'm feeling like a Jedi.....ready for battle!!
I can not wait to find out how this person plans to win back the trust, respect and loyalty lost by their recent actions.
This is what has sucked me dry all last week and stolen my mojo. I hate it when my mojo is gone. I'm just not the same, but tomorrow is my chance to get it back.
Thank you, blogger friends for sending me some inspiration when I put the call out! I needed it! Hopefully tomorrow's meeting will help turn my attitude around. If not, and I end up in jail for assault....I'll be calling you, HOJ!
I'll keep you posted.
I'm feeling like a Jedi.....ready for battle!!
I can not wait to find out how this person plans to win back the trust, respect and loyalty lost by their recent actions.
This is what has sucked me dry all last week and stolen my mojo. I hate it when my mojo is gone. I'm just not the same, but tomorrow is my chance to get it back.
Thank you, blogger friends for sending me some inspiration when I put the call out! I needed it! Hopefully tomorrow's meeting will help turn my attitude around. If not, and I end up in jail for assault....I'll be calling you, HOJ!
I'll keep you posted.
Thursday, May 1, 2008
Thank you, HOJ!
Leave it to House of Jules to send me just the inspiration I was looking for.....
Hell yeah!! That's what I'm talkin' about.....welcome back Motley Crue. Where the hell have you been all my life? I felt like I was in middle school all over again when I saw this. All it lacks is Tommy Lee in some crazy harness drum thing twirling over the city of LA!
Hell yeah!! That's what I'm talkin' about.....welcome back Motley Crue. Where the hell have you been all my life? I felt like I was in middle school all over again when I saw this. All it lacks is Tommy Lee in some crazy harness drum thing twirling over the city of LA!
A call to Action!
It's been almost a week since my last post! Wow! I've been a busy girl. I got over strep by attending a Jimmy Buffet concert Saturday, and pics of that wonderfully fun experience are coming soon!
OK, now on to what's on my mind today.....and I warn you, it's nothing pop-culture-ish or funny. It's a call to ACTION!
I've been wondering for several days as I impatiently wait for my Jimmy Buffet pictures (you-know-who-you-are) what I could write about in lieu of a run down of last Saturday's concert. I kept coming up blank. Nothing. Nada! I had nothing interesting to say about anything.
I scoured different web sites, both funny and serious. Nothing! I even started two or three posts, but still.....couldn't begin to tie any of my thoughts together.
What the hell's going on here? I've only had this blog for 3 months. I can't be tapped out yet!
Then it hit me.....I've had someone very close to me completely betray my trust and make me feel so angry I could punch the wall and another friend that is so down in the dumps, it's making me wonder about his mental stability. In other words, I'm being sucked dry (and not in a good way)!
So, I'm putting the call out to all my blog friends: I NEED SOME POSITIVITY SENT MY WAY. I NEED TO BE INSPIRED. I NEED TO SUCK SOMEONE ELSE DRY (Hey Ohhhhh) FOR A CHANGE! ;)
SEND INSPIRATION ASAP!!!!!
OK, now on to what's on my mind today.....and I warn you, it's nothing pop-culture-ish or funny. It's a call to ACTION!
I've been wondering for several days as I impatiently wait for my Jimmy Buffet pictures (you-know-who-you-are) what I could write about in lieu of a run down of last Saturday's concert. I kept coming up blank. Nothing. Nada! I had nothing interesting to say about anything.
I scoured different web sites, both funny and serious. Nothing! I even started two or three posts, but still.....couldn't begin to tie any of my thoughts together.
What the hell's going on here? I've only had this blog for 3 months. I can't be tapped out yet!
Then it hit me.....I've had someone very close to me completely betray my trust and make me feel so angry I could punch the wall and another friend that is so down in the dumps, it's making me wonder about his mental stability. In other words, I'm being sucked dry (and not in a good way)!
So, I'm putting the call out to all my blog friends: I NEED SOME POSITIVITY SENT MY WAY. I NEED TO BE INSPIRED. I NEED TO SUCK SOMEONE ELSE DRY (Hey Ohhhhh) FOR A CHANGE! ;)
SEND INSPIRATION ASAP!!!!!
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